Progress through the Darkness and the Light

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Progress When Darkness Falls

 

I’m afraid.

I’m scared of not being good enough.

I’m frightened about being the center of attention and I have a bad case of social anxiety.

I can write and email people till no end, but when put in direct communication with someone, the fear takes over me.

I’ve lost out on many opportunities because of this fear.

There must be a myriad of places the fear comes from, but it all ends the same.

I either overcome the fear, (which I’m getting better at) or I don’t.

I write a lot about personal development, following dreams, etc., but a lot of the time, I’m not taking my own advice. I feel stuck in a cycle of worry, doubt, and self-loathing to the fact that I let the fear overtake me–and it happens a lot more than I’d like to admit.

I’m afraid of not living up to my own expectations and the expectations that I THINK–other people have of me. I’m scared of not being able to live the life I want.

I’m afraid of losing. I’m afraid of winning. 

If I lose, then nothing’s lost. I end up pitying myself and am used to it.

If I win, then I become afraid of having to deal with the attention that comes along with it.

It’s a game I don’t want to play.

When Light Shines Through

I’m Alive!

I feel a strong connection to the greater awareness which surrounds and encompasses us all.

I have a will to succeed and a drive to move past all obstacles that stand in my way. (tweet this)

My confidence is strong and my creative juices flow like a waterfall.

I’m right where I need to be and have the ability to overcome all.

My senses are stronger, my mind smarter, and I’m so close to reaching the next level I can taste it on the tip of my tongue.

I never want the feeling to end. I am moving forward in leaps and bounds ahead of my time.

I have the ability to put myself on the level of anyone and the confidence to believe I belong.

Anything’s possible when the light pours in.

Descent

Nothing lasts forever and just as the top of the mountain seems to be within reach, I start to see through the dense fog and notice I have barely begun.

The peak is not even close. The distance seems like an eternity away.

I’ve come so far, yet am devastated by the distance which becomes further and further away the more I continue forward.

I’ve lost all hope and have no energy to move on.

I’m now confused on which way to go. The path is becoming covered with the unknown and for a brief moment I have given up. The distance seems to far to bare and I have no hope of breaking free from these chains that weigh me down.

I’m lost, confused, tired, and feeling hopeless.

Ascent

Suddenly a wave of inspiration rushes through my veins and I am no longer falling.

I’ve found my second wind and it gives me the fuel I need to continue on.

The flame which was once dwindling into the abyss is now a fire to be reckoned with. (tweet this)

My hopes, desires, ambitions, and dreams give me the strength to push forward.

With a wave of insurgence against the depths of darkness, I continue on and up, gaining a multitude of desire to reach the plateau.

I’ve come so far and the results seem to be taking shape in the form of a small victory, one after the other.

I’m feeling strong, capable, and have the will to carry on.

The darkness seems like a faint memory when the light takes hold. I just wish it would stay.

Progress is a Rolling Hill

When you’re moving forward in whatever it is you’re aiming to do, there will always be obstacles which knock you down. A lot of the time, those obstacles turn into a lifestyle.

It’s up to each and everyone of us to recognize these obstacles, or “the darkness” which can wrap us up and never let us go.

The darkness can be different for each of us, but the trials still remain. It’s not a matter of when we fall down, but what we do about it. We can stay down and live a life not of our own choosing, that is to say, we lack the effort to move forward and thus end up longing.

The key is to keep pushing forward through all of it–the light, the dark, the ups, downs, and in between’s. It’s not a matter of staying out of the darkness, that’s impossible.

It’s a matter of rising back up to the light when darkness falls. 

Remembering that progress is like a rolling hill, back and forth between the good and the bad, the light and the dark, can help keep our focus when rough times arise.

When all else fails and you are at the deepest of depths and cannot find the strength to move, right then–you have the power to rise above or sit there drowning.

I sometimes go through weeks where the darkness just will not let go. I can’t accomplish anything nor do I have the want too.

That’s when I look to my environment, the people who inspire me, and give me hope. It’s in the connection with them, I find the strength to begin my journey back into the light.

 

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3 Comments:

  1. Hi Justin!

    “I write a lot about personal development, following dreams, etc., but a lot of the time, I’m not taking my own advice”

    I hear you. Most of the content that I write is for myself. It doesn’t mean that I have mastered that lesson. It simply means that it’s something that I’m learning and improving.

    Every teacher has something new to learn. We will always be students. The more you learn, the more you realize that there’s even more to learn! :)

    The key is to accept and embrace who we are right now and what we know right now and use it to help others that might benefit from it!

    At least that’s what I’m doing these days :)

    All the best Justin!

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